Sunday, April 12, 2015

heavy on my mind...

i know that it is not by chance that lds general conference happens twice a year.  for me, it always comes at a time when so many things weigh heavy on my mind and heart.  when i need that extra push, reminder, love, and hope in my life.  this general conference was no different.  in fact, i'm not sure i would be able to keep moving forward if it wasn't for talks that were so direct and perfect for some things that are so personal and deep in my life at this moment.
the unknowns of life have been getting me down.  goals i knew i wanted to meet were being questioned.  things i thought i knew were fuzzy.  i felt down and low, and although nothing in my daily spiritual routine had changed, i felt alone and sorry for myself.
and then i watched the general womens meeting the week before conference.  the love and hope i had been yearning for filled my soul. but i needed more.
and so as i did my saturday chores i listened to the sessions of conference.  and cried.
my heavenly father knows me.  he loves me.  and he knew what i needed at the very time in my life that i needed it most.
i cried in just about every talk.  in every talk there was something meant just for me.  each of them left me feeling loved and with a desire and hope in god's plan for me.
i will never be able to deny that this gospel is true.  too many personal revelations have happened in my life to ever deny what i know.
i will be grateful to my heavenly father forever for restoring his gospel in these latter days, that i may be apart of this marvelous work and dance the dance that he has set forth for me.
i am so grateful to have the family i have, and to have gordon as my eternal companion.  there is no one in this life more precious to me than him.  he is truly the one i was meant to be with forever and i am so grateful we honor each other they way we do.
i have begun listening to the conference talks again.  the strength, hope, courage and zest for life are renewed.  no, my circumstances have not changed, but my outlook has and i am so very grateful for that.

Sunday, April 5, 2015

life lately

i recently went to the dentist. at my visit they always give me a new toothbrush.
they usually ask me if i want a specific color. this time they didn't.
i ended up having the same color as gordon.
what use to be such a mindless daily activity isn't that way so much.
and now there's a running morning joke that i used your toothbrush...
which won't be so funny when one of us actually uses the other persons toothbrush...
i have danced with gordon once in all 10+ years of knowing him...
little miss asks him to dance and all of the sudden he's prince charming.
literally, he was her prince as she pretended to be all of the disney princesses.
it was adorable. i love how much he loves the littles in our life.
i usually always travel with our dogs by securing them in their dog kennels.
but i had to pick them up from their hair appointment and realized i didn't have their kennels with me.
abbi loved it!  she the worst kind of back seat driver.
MK HAD HER BABY!! We were so excited to meet little K.
she's perfect. her and her mama are doing so well.
we don't want them to move away for law school.
the mister got a new fancy schmancy mountain.
i'm sure he would have preferred to ride a mountain trail, but those narrow trails scare me a bit so we stuck to the dirt road that runs along the mountain side.  
i just love him.
annual hardcastle easter egg dying contest.
little miss and i made best friends eggs with lots of glitter and sparkles.
it was awesome.
our new across the street neighbors invited us to join them for a double date.
we haven't been on an official double date in what felt like forever.
they invited us to go to an arcade and dinner.
we had a really good time and it was fun to get to know them better.
we live next to some really fantastic people.
our neighborhood is pretty great.